Miss You - Ed Sheeran

"Shock, horror, I'm down

Lost, you're not around"

"My mind shuts sound out

I'm on autopilot"

"These words mean nothing to me 

I'm just in on a fence of how it used to be"

"I don't know when I lost my mind

Maybe when I made you mine"

Maybe it was every time 

That you said

 "I miss you. More than I let on. "

Thoughts: 

Truth is, up until now, every time I see those things, evidences of what has happened the whole year, I feel like bursting into a million apologies. 

I'm sorry if I ruined things, if I messed things up. 

Please let the night be as silent as it is after the rain. 

I don't mind those questions, really, just as long as I'm not obliged to answer them. 

THOU SHALL NOT RUIN THE SONG. THOU SHALL NOT OR LIGHTNING WILL STRIKE UPON YOU FROM THE HEIGHTS OF THE EMPIRE STATE BUILDING WHERE OLYMPUS IS SITUATED IN THE PRESENT TIMES AND THOU SHALL FEEL THE WRATH OF ALL THE GODS COMBINED. 

*cue thunder* 

I'm not sure why I suddenly associated this with Percy Jackson. It just seemed appropriate, that's all.  But please, I'm begging you, every single  one of you, please don't ruin any more songs for me. 

Joy, stop yourself. Stop yourself. Stop yourself from screaming. Stop yourself and don't even go there. Joy, please. I'm begging you. Spare yourself from hurt. Spare yourself from all that bullshit. Spare yourself from falling back into that dreadful pit of loneliness that you had to fall into, that large lump in your throat and the tears that fell when you collapsed on your bed. Just freaking stop yourself now, or deal with it your whole life until you learn to let go and move, until you learn to stop caring, until your memory fails you. 

Delete that from your fucking history. 

Hazy - Rosi Golan & William Fitzsimmons 

"What if I fall and hurt myself?

Would you know how to fix me

What if I went and lost myself?

Would you know where to find me

If I forgot who I am, 

Would you please remind me? 

Cause without you, things go hazy"

Another lovely song for you ♥

Thoughts:

I'm missing my friends this early in the summer. 

If last school year was about conquering first impressions, risking to open myself up to people, offering friendly smiles, turning new faces to familiar ones, building up these small friendships and shaking myself awake from my silent judgments, then I guess this year was about  blinking hard several times until all the haze and the fog cleared up and knowing the ones who were true and who weren't, the ones who were worthy of vulnerable trust, the ones best kept at a distance. 

It was about struggling and feeling lonely and crying yourself to sleep at night and feeling numb the next day. 

It was being surrounded by all the lovely people you wanted to hold close. 

It was all the words you couldn't say. 

It was about feeling indifferent and numb and feeling all the wrong emotions and struggling to feel something, missing the lovely loneliness.

It was a matter of caring and not caring and all in all, maybe it might seem stupid, but if pure stupidity means keeping all the bittersweet memories and even the permanent stains, I guess, I'd put up with it. 

Or maybe, I'm just feeling a bit nostalgic and sad that I have to close another chapter and enter another one. Time is running too fast and sometimes, I feel like I'm caught up in its blur. You close your eyes and pray for the sweetest dreams you can dream and suddenly, the whole world lights up and the next morning has arrived and  you don't remember anything for a moment until you realize you've woken up to the same old reality again. 

Elena Tonra (currently called Daughter) - Took Your Breath Away

"And it hurts like love

But I'm not sure if it hurts enough

So, you move me

So, I almost fall

If I just disappeared, would you even notice at all? 

Well, no

I don't think so. "

This song has lovely lyrics, don't you think? 

Sleep tight and please have the sweetest of dreams for me. 

Light's gone, day's end

Some new songs I stumbled upon this Christmas. They've all got me hooked. Some people laugh at my music taste but haha, all is well. To each her own. Music is my best distraction at the moment. So is blogging. It's a relief how I still know how to write. It may not be with paper and pen but it'll do. Anyways, before I get completely off the topic, let me just share these beautiful harmonies my ears have been very pleased to hear:

Romeo Must Die by Gabrielle Aplin

This was shot live. Live, I tell you, live. I can't wait for Home to be released. Sadly, though, they don't sell physical copies of the albums of the artists I like here. Gaaah. 

This was shot in a church. And you can just guess that my initial thought was how ironic it is to sing in  church about how someone must die. Of course, the song's not about that, or so my mind tells me.

Who would've thought that a church would be an ideal place to film? 

    

Keep Pushing Me Away by Gabrielle Aplin

I found so much comfort in this song. I don't even know. 

She and the piano are both beautiful. They make me smile. 

Daniel by Dia Frampton

Isabella by Dia Frampton

I've just discovered her recently. Recently as in yesterday, and I've grown to like her music. 

And I really have no idea why but her music video of The Broken Ones was just......idk. It's just.....I liked it.

Nina Nesbitt's cover of The A Team orginally by Ed Sheeran

Just discovered her today and I have yet to decide if I like her music or not. Tomorrow, I'll definitely check out some of her songs but this cover................. I like this cover.