Showing posts with label William Fitzsimmons. Show all posts
Showing posts with label William Fitzsimmons. Show all posts
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
You Still Hurt Me
by William Fitzsimmons (feat. The Great Neck South High School Choir)
And I miss you since you went out for that walk
I'm not comfortable with how the story ends We were lovers and now we're not even friends You were perfect and I guess I'm just a creep But you still hurt me
If last school year was about conquering first impressions, risking to open myself up to people, offering friendly smiles, turning new faces to familiar ones, building up these small friendships and shaking myself awake from my silent judgments, then I guess this year was about blinking hard several times until all the haze and the fog cleared up and knowing the ones who were true and who weren't, the ones who were worthy of vulnerable trust, the ones best kept at a distance.
It was about struggling and feeling lonely and crying yourself to sleep at night and feeling numb the next day.
It was being surrounded by all the lovely people you wanted to hold close.
It was all the words you couldn't say.
It was about feeling indifferent and numb and feeling all the wrong emotions and struggling to feel something, missing the lovely loneliness.
It was a matter of caring and not caring and all in all, maybe it might seem stupid, but if pure stupidity means keeping all the bittersweet memories and even the permanent stains, I guess, I'd put up with it.
Or maybe, I'm just feeling a bit nostalgic and sad that I have to close another chapter and enter another one. Time is running too fast and sometimes, I feel like I'm caught up in its blur. You close your eyes and pray for the sweetest dreams you can dream and suddenly, the whole world lights up and the next morning has arrived and you don't remember anything for a moment until you realize you've woken up to the same old reality again.
