Why am I doing this to myself?

• I'm just quite scared. 
• I don't know. 
• I'm pissed.
• If things turn out well....................................................................
• I'll be sad again.
• Invisible
• Stupid me
• Stupid thoughts
• Stupid ramblings
• I'm afraid of expecting 
• I won't expect anything from you
• You 
• You
• And you too
• "You" = actually just one person
• Or maybe two
• Who knows?
• Who cares?
• No one. 
• lol
• Ugh
• My dad is being a jerk again
• Friday night is ruined
• I feel sad again
• I feel angry
• I felt happy this morning
• I need to get away from this place
• Just when I need a meet-up
• I need something to do tomorrow
• Aw
• Urgh
• I don't wanna go to school and see that
• Feel that
• But school is better
• "That" is better 
• Waaay better
• Than this
• Everyday is like this
• Tsk
• Tsk
• Tsk
• I love you
• I hate you