• It's 1:43 am and I should be writing an essay for this summer seminar, but I can feel my emotions swelling with anxiety because they might not give me consideration for missing several days of the seminar because of a scheduled recital outside the country. It's like choosing between the world and college, a choice in which I would choose the world without hesitation, but seeing as, the world will only last for twenty days, while college will define my whole future....well. Heck, I might not even get in. 
• I will have a date with Chryss tomorrow and I will forget all my troubles. 
• You utter those sweet words - is this your way of compensating for the time lost?- but you leave anyway. And that's enough proof.  
• I have gone for so long, feeling alone and such. I had no need for fitting in. I was okay with being a misfit. I was okay with sticking out like a sore thumb. I was okay with being different, but on some days, I just needed to belong somewhere. 
• Small talk and laughter is hard to pull off on days like these.
• "I need you" shouldn't fool lovers. Nor should they fool anyone. Needing someone is not the same as wanting someone; needing someone is not the same as caring; needing someone does not equal love of any kind, and needing alone is the worst thing you can do to anyone. 
• One of my friends is undergoing an open knee surgery tomorrow morning and I hope it goes well. Send out a little prayer for her, please? :)
• The Connecticut Massacre is one of the unthinkable tragedies that only shows how this world is no refuge anymore. Maybe heaven needed little angels up there but I wish the world could've taken them in a way that did not bring so much pain to the struggling souls left here to earthly existence. Rest in peace, little ones. Rest in peace, heroes. You will be remembered.