You know how you can't exactly write with both your left and right hands at the same time?
Or  how you can't use both a spoon and a fork with only one hand?
Or maybe, how the right shoe wouldn't fit the left foot and the left shoe wouldn't fit the right?
Or maybe how you simply cannot listen to two different songs at once?

Well, it's in those mundane & uninteresting things that I see how it really is. Impossible.

Impossible....yet, bearable.


No, forget it.  You know what? It's not even bearable anymore. It's stupid and sick and twisted and I feel crushed. It's not bearable. It never was. But I'm putting up with it, or trying to look like I am.   And I know how stupid that sounds! It's not bearable so how can you put up with it? Because I have to! Because sometimes, all you can do is wait and watch and listen no matter how painful it runs through your senses and reaches the core of your thoughts and your emotions. Because I have to. Because I have to. Because I have to.